I have been reading several books lately. :)
Not that I may need them in the future or anything... or... well, I hope I might, but.... It is all up to Kevin, really ;) I may perhaps be wearing him down!! ;)
This weekend I read Husband Coached Childbirth by Dr Bradley, and Ina May's guide to Childbirth, by Ina May Gaskin :) I especially loved Ina May's book. She is QUITE a hippie, but she is more "down to Earth" than most people, and I like that.I like natural. And that is exactly what Ina May is :)
My family mostly thinks I am full of it, for even wanting to be pregnant again... but I most sincerely want more children. And I most sincerely believe God will bless me with more. :) If he does not, I am good, though. I try to be content. Naturally, I can't help the feelings of longing I get when I see or hear other babies or babymamas. But do you really think that is actually discontentment?? I can't help but think it is not me being discontent... just having a natural reaction to getting older and being "barren" for so many years now...
I do plan on having my next baby at home, if God so blesses me :)
AND, my family thinks I am nuts for that too. Their theory is that I will not be able to have the baby at home. Because my labors were long and rough and my cervix was kind of a pain. It always got stuck at three centimeters for like EVER.
HOWEVER, after reading these two very informative books (Bradley is an OB, who favors natural childbirth within the hospital surrounding) I have come to the conclusion that my cervix is NOT defective, but that my surroundings were not very encouraging for optimal cervical dilation to occur! :D
And so.. I firmly believe in my ability to give birth to any future progeny at my home with very little to no problems :)
And I am going to try it if the Good Lord gives me the chance. :)
I will however be needing some encouragement... so anyone who has given birth at home or knows someone who has successfully done so, feel free to share the good stuff! :D Thx! haha