I always forget how bad it can get. This year is a bad one.
I always have at least a mild case of SAD. But some years I get it bad.
I am fairly certain this is one of those years.
I am really trying to be grateful and content and not sad.
I am grateful and content, but I am still so sad.
It is hard when your hormones are working against you. And when you would just really like to have a baby, and it seems like everyone you know is pregnant or just had a baby, and even some people are pregnant with twins...And especially because you are trying to be happy for them (and you are happy for them) but you are kinda jealous....And especially especially because you will probably never ever ever get to have your own baby ever again.
It is really hard not to be sad.
But I will be fine.
I just have to keep being grateful for what I have got. :)